me to my friends; bukit cerakah 2009

kadang2 ku ada terfikir jugak, kenapa ku suka berkawan yang orangnya perangai pelik2. aku pun perangainya pelik ke? dari senarai kawan2 ku, ku rasakan yang ianya walaupun pelik, tapi sangat sempurna. dari yang macam2 ni, semua aku dapat kategorikan it’s reali complicated and problematic. it juz lama tak lama aku belajar situ, kawan2 aku ramai jugak - yang ngam dan tak ngam; sorang suka main cakap lepas, seorang kurang ajar tak ingat, sorang suka drag others into problems…..and macam2la perangai pelik diaorang. aku sesungguhnya sedar dan arif tentang perangai slack budak2 ni…

barangkali it’s their honesty that made me want to be with them. to get to know them deep down inside. padahal aku bukannya mau at the first place….pakai common sense lah… sape yang mau kawan dengan orangnya yang perangai pelik? phsyco la. but i was-otherwise..the other way around…Yoh!

bukan nak menggangkat diri-time sekola aku rasa aku da unleashed the real me. cam ertikata aku da kenal dan tau diri aku"siapa" and i’m trying to compare this and that. yeah…family was very helpful to teach me that kind of me…and now it’s like introverts i befriended with, I changed them. i’m sort of an introverts myself- and i tell you, introverts are full of surprises jugaklah…Yoh! Hahah

those with difficult personalities pun aku kawan jugak. jenis yang panas baran, susah nak predict-itupun kawanku jugak. macam tu la. aku tak pilih kawan. and i believe that every human have their flaws and have their moments. gi time sekolah dulu yaa- teen angst, so moments came anytime they please. but i stood by them when others turn their backs. the amazing thing was: these type of people openly expressed how they feel, how they really are to me- and i discovered that they aren’t as bad as others thought. it intrigued me to know what’s within that difficult personality. yang orang lain heran " Apa bagus sangat ke kawan ngan budak cam gitu?" Yalah…korang tak tahu….. Like i said, semua yang bernama manusia ada kelemahan and if you actually take the time to be with them though thick and thin, you’ll understand the real person underneath that exterior.

perhaps it takes patience to be with difficult people. i realize that tak semua orang penyabar. till right now, 2-3 orang kawanku bukannya elok sangat pun adab bertuturnya. at times, aku jadi mangsa buli jugak. tapi hujung2nya aku tak amik terasa ke ape. that’s when i started to accept the fact that, ada orang yang perangainya cam due to their upbringing and whatnot. namun papehal akan tetap cari aku, regarding jiwa kacau…hahah. they just expressed what they felt to me. padahal masing2 ada kawan baek tapi aku jugak yang dicari. aku pun dengarlah jugak and gave my opinions when necessary. some of them pun, i noticed had changed more or less lepas lepak ngan ku. dulu suka cakap lepas, sekarang ni da watching out what they said. i’ll put it this way- I’m the Yang to their Ying, I’m the neutralizer. I’m the water to their fire. rasa best dan bangga…hahah. I changed people’s lives internally. aku pun rasa happy jugak seeing positive changes and most of them are contented with themselves unlike before. That’s how peer influences can do to anyone.

so that’s when the ‘Opposite Attract’ theory proves it right. aku pun bukannya baek. tapi nature aku memang cam tu….. Be nice to everyone regardless of how they treat you. Buat bait, balas bait. As simple as that. the nice thing about what i went through-Igained trust. I know what they are going through. I know the story behind theexternal bitterness.

the best part? I developed the mutual understanding and a long lasting friendship with them…only with sokngan padu yang jitu. hahah….but take my word for it though..

for only the human that proves me as your frens, aku tak nak ada yang terasa ke kecik hati ke apa dengan apa yang aku cakapdalam situ. lagipun ku tak pangkah nama sesapa pun. But yeah…you all taught me a lot of determination, patience and

preseverance and sociology huehuehue…susah sebenarnya aku nak pahan fiil korang. Regardless of all that, ku sayang korang tak kira apa.

a true and a real friendship is not based on being choosy but understanding.