Paranoia

As much as I am happy for myself to be able to do internship at his company and do something worthwhile for my career - I also fear this new changes will take parts of our life away. It has started even before i move into the new office. Paranoia much? I thought so...but unable to let loose the feelings of this insecure.He won’t be traveling far of course and he’ll still be around but I would expect our meal time be interrupted with phone calls of selfish clients, he will have to probably cancel out on our plans together during the last minute, there’ll be a possibility the whole week we're going to stomp at the office the whole week even on SUndays because he loved his work much than i am. The thoughts are endless, I do try to keep a positive mind and it’s not easy.Maybe I should have more patience. Maybe I should take it as it is. Maybe I should be more understanding. Maybe, maybe, maybe.Will he understand when I start crying about it? Will he be able to do something when I get upset that he’s always around but not his concern, his soul towards our stages of relationship? Will he consider my feelings whenever he says he won’t pick me up until things get done? No, no, no. He will say he’s doing his job, he doesn’t have any choice and sadly enough he is right. Nevermind at how heartbroken I felt to accept this fact. He’s doing his job and nothing will change that.I really wish to have my mother’s emotional strength. All of this crying behind the scenes is weakening me. Dear God, help me through this...